Hungry and without motivation.

I cooked a roast chicken and did roast potatoes in frylite and had these with veg and gravy.  Dessert was fruit and yoghurt as usual.

I think what’s making it hard for me is the extreme cold, grey weather.  I really don’t like the cold.

However, onwards and upwards as they say.

…..and you begin thinking, oh no it would take me 6 months to lose x amount, how depressing and I cannot do it, think again.

Of the 6 long months, only the first week or two would be the same as you are now and the benefits of weight loss would increase and increase through the time.  By the last couple of months you would be much more slim than before and the final weeks would be about fine-tuning your size.  Add to this that the worst time for getting used to eating less is the first week after which you would be in a routine and starting to enjoy results, wear different clothes and live a new life. 

I am now eyeing up the ten stone mark and getting excited about being able to say good by to verychubbyland.  I have cooked a lean chilli for tonight and will enjoy it with rice and some light choices garlic bread. 

I’ve been keeping very much to tried and tested meals.  I do like a dessert so I am tending to have fresh pineapple, grapes and some fat free vanilla yoghurt.  It’s all the same stuff I started eating in January but I do enjoy it.

My super sandwich today contained a hard boiled egg and a thin slice of lean ham, low fat spread, salad, cottage cheese.  It was delicious.

I went out for coffee with my best friend the other day, she is also on a diet and has lost 10lbs since Christmas.  I can really notice the difference as her jeans are starting to hang off her bum.

It is so very cold here in the south of England, oh-my-god, and we are going to have a fall of snow tonight.  Thankfully my chilli will warm the cockles of my heart.

My friend was anxious to get in her head about time scales for weight loss, I’ll do another post about that.

So used to being hungry, not sure when I’m hungry and when I’m not.  Not very hungry tonight, had a good but low fat pasta meal.

Bitterly cold out tonight, haven’t been for a long walk in a few days.

Might do a weigh in and a measure in the morning.

Still going strong but haven’t had time to take any pictures and can’t confirm I’ve lost more weight due to hormones still doing their thing.

I did get up and put my Evans size 14 jeans on this morning and found they slipped on easily which they never did do before.

Spent a really hungry day at college.  Everything I ate didn’t touch the sides.

Phone and broadband are playing up today and a group of old schoolfriends (did I say friends?) had removed me from their email list without asking me.  I wrote them an angry upset email telling them how they made me feel.

But none of that can make me eat rubbish, I’m still determined.  Fitting comfortably today into some Gap size 14 stretch jeans.

Hungry.

But doing well.

Haven’t weighed yet.

that feeling of having to fight for something you want to buy … and losing it.

Oh well, I shall knit my own poncho.

I hadn’t done a power walk this week until this morning, it felt good and my glasses steamed up at the end because I got so hot.  I’m not enjoying the low fatness of some of my food but it has to be that way.  I made myself finish my lunchtime sandwich because if I don’t I get over hungry for my other meal at 5pm.  I’m feeling quite ratty and anxious but that’s just part of not having enough food.  I’m upset I can’t weigh or measure myself due to hormonal bloat.  I’m living on trust that I’ve eaten less than I need.

The light is subtly different today, it’ll be Oimelc in a few days and to me that’s the quickening of spring so I’m excited.  Where I live right down in the south of England spring arrives early during the weeks of February.  There have already been daffodils in Mortimer’s Lane, Fair Oak during this month.

Have fallen obsessively in love with ponchos since the one I had in my cupboard saved my life this week.  Might collect or make a few more.

Oh and I bid on a vintage leather waistcoat on Ebay and won it for 99p.  Could be interesting.

Early afternoon and the day is a struggle, not because of the diet directly but because I’m tired and the household is stressy.  My 11 year old is in a mood/bored/lonely/wants a dog/won’t have a shower and really needs one.  It’s at times like this that I realise I need calories to meet the world and I’m low on them so I’m vulnerable.  I must learn to take more care of myself on this weight loss journey.  TLC.  Rest.  Pace myself.

In a strange way I feel less hungry than I did.  My super sandwich needn’t be quite so manically big as my body has got used to less coming in although this doesn’t alter the fact that I am burning my fat and get tired.  If that makes sense.

I’m possibly delusional.

Ahhh yes…gotta love our female hormones….hang in there…I have a rule here…no weighing self while in hormone state…we have extra retained water, and other things that lead to false weights…=) you are doing great….keep it up!